Jane
Bits of myself? I am me. Just me. I am complicated. Just like you are. Don't try to simplify things for me because it doesn't work that way.

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Theotherme: Jane

Wednesday, May 27, 2009 April was my last post. This is the end of may. no matter. This is good. It means there's nothing significantly life changing enough for me to blog about. Or is that a bad thing?

hhmm...I wonder why I have to take on different personalities when I'm around different people. Am I secretly a discriminator without realizing it? NAHHH... Trying to fit in maybe.

I wonder how people sometimes are able to find what they want in life and do so well at it. I'm happy for these people. I wish it for myself. I wish I'd actually do what I said I would. I wish I wouldn't be afraid. Afraid of the questions people ask me that I can't answer. Because the fact is that I don't have an answer that they want to hear. Talking like this makes me wonder am I in fact a functioning human being living in a human society?

In my future, in my mind anyways, I would like to live far away. In a place where... where... you see? I don't even know where I want to be. I want to live in a comfy little apartment. Where I keep only my basic necessities. 1.lomocamera. 2.clothes. 3.food. chocolates to be exactomente. 4.piano. Looking out my window below me is a bustling little town where the bakery and cafe is right across from me. I will smell freshly baked goods and brewed black aromatic coffee every morning. Simplicity.

There's a list on my heart right now. A list of things I need to check off my chest. I need to find meaning.

I need to find meaning. I need You.