Jane
Bits of myself? I am me. Just me. I am complicated. Just like you are. Don't try to simplify things for me because it doesn't work that way.

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Friday, October 24, 2008 Have been so long since I could blog without stressing about what people might think about it. It shouldn't matter if I do or do not blog about anything that is on my mind. It's supposed to be my thoughts. What I am going through at that moment and time. My blog is precisely that right? My Diary? Do I have to only write about all the happy and positive things in life when I also have other emotions as well? I am trying my best to cope with my feelings and I have to be schooled for writing honestly. So that blog is pretty much an advertising blog. A mask of a blog.

Right now I am at a transitional point of my life. In a few days I would be moving to live with my friends in PeJ. My sister is in Medan-indonesia on a mission trip. Seems like she's having the time of her life there at least from how she describe it in her blog. Anyways she'll be there for 4 more weeks and I'll be living with my friends. After her mission trip, she might be going to Johor right after? So this house in Klang will be abandoned. This house that has been my home for the past 18 years of my life.

I am trying to put my life back together. I will try to read more. I will try to complete my assignments. I will try to attend all classes. I cannot promise anything because it doesn't mean anything unless results are seen. And I also don't want to make promises to myself and then feel disappointed if I don't keep them.

I found some of my old songs last night at the piano. I've quite a collection it seems! As I looked at them one by one and played them all one by one, I started to remember what the songs meant to me at the time that I wrote them. It was quite encouraging to see that God's given all these gifts to me to comfort and remind me of how much I've grown. I like the melodies as well. I'm not stupid after all. I just have a different kind of intelligence.

Amen!